A Break from Reality Pt.4a By Amethyst amethyst@tuxedomask.com hey there! Thanks to everyone who emailed me!!!! Keep 'em coming, people! this is Part 4A of the conclusion to this mini-saga. Remember, I live for feedback. Also, please read "Secrets of the Wind" at A Sailor Moon Romance, I'd really be honoured if you did and told me what ya thought. That's all folks! Ja ne! Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon. If you want to sell it to me for free, I'd be happy to buy it. ANd I don't own Savage Garden, either. ************************************************************************ Serena streched out in her bed, sighing as the sun hit her face. Her sleep that night had been filled with nightmares, covered with torturous dreams. She looked at her sleepy reflection in the mirror, inhaling Darien's scent as she climbed out of bed. She knew what choice she had to make. She knew what she had to choose. She knew that this couldn't be. She opened the door out of the bedroom, and saw Darien sitting there, on the couch, and he smiled softly at her. 'God, just for today.... let me and Darien be together. Please God, please!' she silently pleaded. He walked over to her, enveloping her mouth in a searing kiss. "Morning." he whispered huskily against her lips. She sighed. "Darien, this can't..." he silenced her with another kiss, capturing her pink lips again. "I know..." he kept kissing her, though, neither of them had the control to stop. She scared him, the power she held over him, the way she could make his body act against his mind's will. She loved him, he knew that, even though she was turning him down- the kisses told all. They were sweet kisses, that caused his stomach to twist in amazing ways. But he wasn't ready for love. It scared him, the thought of this strong emotion that tortured him. His Dream Princess was safe to love, his Serenity. She would never hurt him, as Serena would. There were so many other men who would want her, what was the chance of his lovely Serena to want him over all of them? And Sailor Moon could be his rival, his enemy, when it came to the Silver Crystal. No, she wasn't safe to love either. It was so much easier, safer to love a dream, a beautiful dream princess who he would probably never meet, but, at least then, she couldn't hurt him. 'But for today,' he decided, 'until I pull up in front of Serena's, she's mine. Just for today.' Serena purred as he kissed the skin under her earlobe. Thoughts swirled through her mind, thoughts about her choice. She'd chosen her Prince, her Endymion. He wouldn never cast her out in the cold, he would never leave her. He was safe, he didn't cause her stomach to twist and turn like this, her knees to shake and give out just with a simple touch. He would never be like Tuxedo Mask, the possible enemy that she couldn't trust, according to Luna. Her Endymion was safe to love, it was a dream, a dream that might never come true. But it was a safe dream, either way. 'But for today, I'm Darien's. Just for today.' "Just for today." Darien murmered against her lips, and she nodded slightly. "For today.... then..." she kissed her neck "we go back..." kiss "to reality...." kiss. Reality, what a blissful word. But a doubt haunted her mind. 'Could we ever go back to normal?' "And we stare each other down like victims in the grind Probing all the weakness and hurt still left behind and we cry The tears of pearls We do it. Oh we do it. Is love really the tragedy the way you might describe? Or would a thousand lovers still leave you cold inside? Make you cry... These tears of pearls All these mixed emotions we keep locked away like stolen pearls Stolen pearl devotions we keep locked away from all the world Your kisses are like pearls, so different and so rare But anger stole the jewels away and love has left you bare, Made you cry... These tears of pearls Well I could be the tired joker pour my heart to get you in Sacrifice my happiness just so I could win Maybe cry... These tears of pearls All these mixed emotions we keep locked away like stolen pearls Stolen pearls devotions we keep locked away from all the world We twist and turn where angels burn Like fallen soldiers we will learn That once forgotten, twice removed Love will be the death... The death of you All these mixed emotions we keep locked away like stolen pearls Stolen pearls devotions we keep locked away from all the world" --"Tears of Pearls" By Savage Garden ************************************************************************ Darien pulled up in front of the Tsukino's two story house. Her parents and Sammy weren't home yet, so now Serena had time to herself before they arrived. During the day, when they weren't kissing, Darien had told her about himself, about the orphanage and his parents, about how he was alone. Serena had cried then, and it amazed him how big and beautiful her heart was. She told him about her life, and he tutored her in math a bit. They went shopping and ate an early dinner before he drove them back to Tokyo.... back to reality. He looked over at the sleeping angel in the seat next to him, and he felt his heart wrentch in pain at the realization that this was their last seconds as Serena and Darien. Her pink lips were slightly parted and begging to be kissed. He leaned over and wrapped his arms possessively around her waist, before kissing her gently. "Sere..." he murmered, and she opened her eyes to see sapphire orbs gazing into her baby blue ones. "Darien..." "Ready to go back to reality?" he asked, and her eyes became sad. He wanted to kiss her again, to grab her and say that he wanted to continue seeing her forever, to ignore his mind and go with his heart's cries. She reached up and brushed a raven-black strand of hair out of his eyes. "Not quite yet," she murmered before pulling his head down to her height, and kissed him soundly, throughly, their tounges playing. After a long moment of bliss, they parted, and Serena got out of the car. "See ya around, Meatball Head." Darien said sadly, and she nodded. Her blonde head hung as she walked inside the house, and Darien stared at the closed door for a moment, touching his lips with his fingers. "Sere..." he breathed. "Why does this feel so... wrong?" Serena leaned her head against the closed door. Crystal tears flooded down her cheeks, and she felt like she'd torn part of her heart out and left it at the condo, and left the rest of it in the car with him. It wasn't right, making her choose like this. Oh God, why did he make her feel like this? Why? "Why do I feel like I made the wrong choice?" she cried brokenly to the empty house, and silence only answered. "Well don't you know I need a little indulgence? Listen to the hunter becoming hunted Every day there's a million advances Don't be too forceful, you'll ruin your chances Well don't you know that time is a broken glass That splinters against the wall? But the picture is coming back now baby, And I want to take it all Don't go making all these promises you know you cannot keep There's a time to play a king and a time to be the thief 'Cause if you're making all these promises you know you cannot keep You know time will be the thief and your fallen king will end up alone So let you're body move a little bit closer Silent like the sound proceeding a cyclone Don't you know that powerful thinking Can be a force you don't want to relinquish? Well don't you know that, They say that hanging on will justify the wait? But patience and elated wisdom don't share a common phrase Don't go making all these promises you know you cannot keep There's a time to play a king and a time to be the thief 'Cause if you're making all these promises you know you cannot keep You know time will be the thief and your fallen king will end up alone Well, I'm only hanging on for what goes down I'm floating high and my feet don't touch the ground I'd take advantage but I can't see through this charade So don't you, don't go make it harder than hell 'Cause when it comes down to the making You better be damned sure you can take it Hey baby Well dont go making all these promises you know you cannot keep There's a time to play a king and a time to be a thief 'Cause if your making all these promises you know you cannot keep You know time will be the thief and your fallen king will end up alone Time will be the thief and your fallen king will end up... A fool, a fool, a lonely sorry fool Oh baby, 'cause I told you baby" -- "Promises" by Savage Garden... yeppers I'm on an SG kick. ************************************************************************ go to pt. 4b and be ashtonished!!!!!