warning: totally unedited. After Midnight By Klutz Rat: g part 1/1 ANS: This was a song-fic challenge on my list SMRFF from QuickSilver Light (mbsilvana@hotmail.com) and the song is called 'after midnight' by Mercedes Lackey. Anyways, she pointed out that this just speaks so loudly of a First Season Mamoru, And though I think a fic has already been done with this song, I'd like it try it. Anyways, you can direct comments to me at lunap@lunap.com Luvs ya!~ Klutz After Midnight by: Mercedes Lackey In the dead, dark hours after midnight, When the world seems to stop in its place, You can see a little more clearly, You can look your life in the face. Mamoru lay with his hands behind his head, staring up at the ceiling. The digital clock on the bed-stand flashed 12:01 in glaring red letters. Rain dripped slowly down the window and fell to the streets below. It had been a long day. He had woken up on time, and gone through his regular routine, but for once, he hadn't seen Odango on the way to school in the morning, nor at the Crown Game Center after school. The Princess in his dreams had haunted him the night before, and without his regular teasing of Odango to take off a little of the stress, everything had just raked on his nerves all day long. You can see the things that you have to. Speak the words too true for the day. In the dead dark hours after midnight Little friend, will you listen and stay? Okay, so he could admit it here. In the dark, in the silence, in the haven of his appartment. No one could hear him here but himself and his soul. He needed Odango. She was kind of a steady thing in his life, something he could count as 'normalicy' in a beyond-less-than-normal life. She was something that told him that he wasn't going crazy, he wasn't insane yet. He hadn't cracked... Because if Usagi was there, surely the sun would be shining and the grass would still be green. There were times when he was weak, when he almost gave in and just fell to his knees and poured everything out to her. Everything that had happened and made him question his own sanity. But during times like those she would slam into him while rounding a corner at top speed, and his brain would just 'click'. He would call her Odango, tease her incesantly, and she would tease him right back and go on with her day. After their usual bout of insults, Mamoru felt the great weight lift off his shoulders, and he could go on with the day as if nothing had happened. Everything was okay. In the time when I never knew you I could view the world as my own I was God's own gift to his creatures And I wore an armor of stone See, before Usagi had popped into his life that sunny September day, he had been calm, cool, collected. He had brushed off the most zealous of teenage girls with a glance, he had been arrogant and cool to a T. As Mamoru-before-Usagi he had never questioned his actions, or worried about what others thought. I was wise and faithful and noble. I was pompous, pious and cool. I was cruel when I never meant it Too cool to touch or to hold. Mamoru-before-Usagi got perfect grades in school, had the great appartment, the great car, never had a hair out of place, made Women swoon without even looking at him. Women. Maybe that was what had made him stop and look twice at Usagi. Most girls froze in place, turned and stared when they saw him on the street. Usagi on the other hand... she'd just been annoyed, had yelled at him (something he was definitly not used to) and went on her way. She only looked back once, and that was only to make some comment to herself about what a creep he was. Usagi was intruiging...in a most-often frustrating way. It was you who broke through my armor. It was you who breached through the wall. With your pain and your desperation How could I not answer your call? Usagi had changed the way he thought, the way he lived, his very daily routine. When he got up in the morning he took extra time to look good, hoping maybe she would sstop and think a little more about him. He took a different route to school, walked, just so he could run into her every morning. He stopped by the Crown Game Center everyday after school, just to see her. He worked out. He studied harder. What else could he do? No other girl had eyes that shade, with a compelling look in them. She reminded him of the princess, only the Princess wasn't perfect, and Usagi was. How could I have guessed you would touch me? And in ways I couldn't control? How could I have known I would need you? Or have guessed you have seen through my soul? Oh it's true you know. Usagi has seen through millions of people, and he was sure she can see through him too. Just one sad look from her and he lost all control, and would want to cheer her up. When she was happy, he was happy. The emotional stress had been killing him, it was so hard to stay away. For as I taught you so you taught me, How to love and why to care. For your love has thawed my winter. Taught me how to feel and dare. He had loosened up a bit since knowing, well, teasing, Usagi. He was a little more open, and at the same time, she was growing up, day by day. He noticed things now. Like the trees in fall, and the snow-flakes in winter. He smiled on sunny days and frowned at the rain. Usagi was having an affect on him, and he on her. When I looked tonight I discovered, I could not again stand apart. In the dead dark hours after midnight I learned that I owe you my heart. Mamoru glanced over at the clock again. The red numbers still glared out at him against the darkness of the room, and the stillness of the night. 12:09 There was no stopping it now, he would tell her, and soon. So what do you think? No, I won't write another part, but maybe someone else will. Or maybe I will... who knows. It all depends on how much FEED BACK I get from this! Remember guys, e-mail is a wonderful thing. lunap@lunap.com or moonklutz@yahoo.com Luvs ya!~ Klutz www.lunap.com Klutz (MKC) Proud webmistress and owner of Luna P dot Com! Keeper of Sailor Uranus (SMFA) and all the WAFF! www.lunap.com SMRFF (owner) ------------------------------------------------------------ Luna P! E-mail! *free e-mail provided at www.lunap.com, get your own now!*