PART 2 The next day after school while Serena was walking home she stopped in the arcade. But with her great luck the person she didn’t want to deal with was there. "Hi Serena," called Andrew. "Hey," said Serena in a sad voice. Andrew gave her a strange look and was about to comment. When Darien said: "Hey Andrew, oh hi Meatball Head, didn’t see you there," said Darien with a false smile. "Whatever, have a nice day Andrew," replied Serena with a travesty of a smile of her own. Darien gave her a weird look, and Serena could have sworn she had seen concern but she turned around and left before she could analyze it. ‘How does he do it, how can he act like nothing happened, how can he just turn of like that, Serena what are you saying he never had feelings for you in the first place remember, your just a loser Meatball head to him.’ Serena was so busy thinking that she didn’t notice the boy in front of her and she crashed right into him. "Oh I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to I just wasn’t looking," said Serena worriedly. "I know, don’t worry about it Serena," he said with a smile. "Oh Tim, I didn’t know it was you," Serena said shocked, she had just run into one of the hottest guys at her school. "Hey it’s okay really, but ironically I was looking for you, do you want to go to the movies with me," he said with a smile. "Sure," was all Serena could manage to say, Tim actually wanted to go out with her. "Okay then, I’ll pick you up at eight, bye Serena," said Tim warmly. Later that day Serena had been waiting an hour for Tim but it didn’t look like he was going to show. ‘Well this has been the greatest week of my life, first Darien now Tim,’ Serena thought sarcastically. She had hoped this date would take her mind off Darien. ‘Well at least for a few minutes anyway’ she though sadly. She went up to her room slammed the door and went to bed. Next day at school, lunch time. Serena had spotted Tim talking to his friends and was about to go up to him but she stopped when she heard her name and then laughter accompanied by it. Serena ran up to the tree closest to them and hid behind it. "Yeah I had a hot date last night, you can say I was a very LUCKY man," replied Tim smugly. "What are you going to tell Serena," asked his friend. "Oh I’ll tell her my little brother was sick and I had to watch him, that girl believes anything, she’s so gullible it’s funny," said Tim laughing. "Are you ever going to ask her out again," asked his friend. "Of course, wouldn’t want that prime piece of female flesh to get away.. and like I said she so gullible I could probably get her to do anything with me . It’s like taking candy from a baby," Tim said with confidence. Serena had seldom been so angry in her life, she was ready to tear Tim apart, a feeling she wasn’t used to. Serena had never hit anyone in her life but she would give anything to smack Tim. Tim had spotted her and came up to her. "Hey beautiful, sorry about last night....," he was cut of in midsentence and he looked at her eyes they were furious and he had a sudden sick feeling in his stomach. The next thing he knew there was a peach blur and an intense pain in his left eye and he was on the ground. "Don’t you ever come near me again you sad excuse for a human being, and if I ever hear that you have gone near any of my friends you can rest assured that a black eye is just the beginning," replied Serena furiously and stormed away. Serena was having such a bad day she went to the nurses office and told them she wasn’t feeling well. She needed to go home and unwind, get away from it all and be alone, and she was starting to feel bad about Tim. ‘Maybe I should apologize, or maybe not, oh I don’t know anything anymore,’ thought Serena desperately. ‘Now I get to sit in my empty room and think about Darien for the rest of the time, another torture session,’ she thought dejectedly. After wallowing in her misery for a couple hours she decided she had to get out of the house. ‘Maybe I’ll go to Raye’s, get my mind off things for a bit,’ so she grabbed her coat and headed out. As she cut through the park to get to the temple she saw Darien. ‘Oh no not him, I couldn’t take it right now.’ "Hey Meatball head, trip lately," Darien said mockingly. "How do you do it Darien, I don’t understand," by this time Serena was so angry and having just such a bad day that she couldn’t hide her feelings anymore. "Do what," his face losing that mocking mask to be replaced with one of irritation. “Stuff your self inside and let no one in, how can you be so mean and insensitive when all you are is a scared lonely little boy on the inside," retorted Serena angrily. "Serena stop it," said Darien getting angry himself. "Personally I don’t know how you do it, how do shut people out the way you do, I need to have love and share things with people, If you continue the way you do you’re going to be alone all your life!" Serena was yelling now she was so sad and upset that Darien didn’t share the same feelings she had for him. "Love who needs love, love doesn’t exist, and why would I want it any way, look what it does to you, you’re a whiny, dumb, klutzy, dependent little girl," replied Darien furiously. Serena went as white as death, and whispered "I’m sorry Darien, so sorry," and she ran away. Darien hadn’t seen Serena for two days, and he was feeling so depressed and ashamed of the things he said to her. All she had done was tell him the truth. He never realized how much he depended on her voice, her happiness, her joy for life. He missed seeing her beautiful blue eyes shine with laughter as she walked down the street, or her silky golden hair shine like platinum in the sunlight, or her animated face break into the most beautiful smiles he had ever seen. And secretly he missed her soft kisses, how her small frame fit so perfectly in his, and how she drove him insane where ever her hands touched him. Some how Serena saw right through him, those soul reading eyes of hers stripped him naked. She filled the empty void inside him. ‘But now she’ll never forgive me, I always ruin everything, I had to push her and push her away, and now I’ll never have her.’ Darien spent the day wandering aimlessly thinking about Serena. It was night time in the park and kind of chilly, thought Darien, wishing he had brought his coat. He heard screams in the far end of the park. "Stop it please, don’t do this, oh please someone help me," cried a familiar voice. "Shut up sugar, no one can hear you, just relax," replied a dark deep voice. Darien came closer and realized that it was Serena. ‘Oh no, If any thing happens to her...’ Darien thought anxiety-ridden. Darien found a big man on top of Serena and went bezerk. "Get the hell off her," yelled Darien furiously. The big man turned around and said: "Don’t you have places to be pretty boy, just leave us alone were doing just fine," unfortunately the man he didn’t notice the insane gleam that had entered Darien’s eyes. He was bodily picked up and then about of a million kicks and punches came his way, he was down in a matter of minutes but he managed to run away before Darien could get in any more punches. Serena was curled up in a tight ball her clothes torn all over the place, and sobs were racking her petite frame. "Oh, Serena," Darien whispered, he was at a complete loss for words, if he hadn’t been there, what would of happened to Serena, waves of murderous thoughts and hate spread through his body, he still wanted to kill that man he wanted him to die for even daring to touch Serena. Darien went over to Serena’s shaking form and enfolded her in his arms. She tried to get out of his grasp he thought with a stab of pain. ‘Well why should she want your comfort after you said all those idiotic untrue things to her, you hurt her bad with those words and you know it, you probably killed the only chance of love you ever had, oh who am I kidding she never loved me, no one loves me, I’m just a jerk to her,’ but he still held her in his arms, he had to, he wanted to keep her safe, he wanted to squeeze her tight so she would never remember this again. "Serena did he, did he...," he asked his voice raw with pain. Serena responded by curling up ever tighter. "I’ll kill him If I ever find him, I’ll kill him!!," Darien yelled furiously. "No Darien, he’s too big, he didn’t do that, he only t...t..touched me, It was just really s...scary" Serena broke of with a sob. "I’m so sorry Serena, so sorry," he felt so hopeless, he just wanted to take her pain and make it his, he felt furious that he couldn’t stop this in time. He was so angry that he couldn’t stop his next words: "Serena what the hell were you thinking coming out here so late," he yelled angrily at her. Serena wrenched away form him her heart breaking. "Well since I’m so stupid I don’t have the sense to know when to be out, and since I’m so klutzy and dumb I guess I deserved for this to happen to me just like everything else bad happens to me, like being to dumb to realize the scum of the earth Tim when I saw him that he was using me, or being to whiny, stupid and not pretty enough to deserve you. I’m not good enough and I can except that, I also have to accept the fact that I love you more than anything but you don’t love me back. God only knows why I seem to love you. And he only knows why I seem to be attracted to people who hate me," Serena screamed and ran off. Darien was stunned that she thought so low of herself, she was one of the most wonderful people he knew. But what stunned him the most was that she loved him. But he sobered when he remembered that look of pain on her face. ‘I’m going to have to open up to her and tell her how I feel. I’m going to have to make her realize that all those things she said about her self are untrue. Yeah what a big help you are, you’re the one who was to stupid to realize you’ve always loved her. No you had to be an idiot and be scared of the heaven that Serena offered to you, you had to be an idiot and rip her heart out. Oh but I’ll make it up to you Serena, even if I have to spend the rest of my life doing it, and I’ll prove to you that you are much more than good enough for me, maybe I’m the one who’s not good enough for you.’ The next day Darien had gone to Serena’s house to look for her, but her mother had told him she was at the park. So he ran as fast as he could to the park, his courage to do this was slowly diminishing. He almost missed her because she had her hair down, she was under the tree where they had met for the first time, he had thought she was the most beautiful girl he had ever seen when he had first laid eyes on her but he was to stupefied to say anything good and he had ended up making fun of her hair style. She looked even more beautiful now, a miniature goddess with her long golden hair rippling down like a waterfall. But he couldn’t see her eyes and he realized she was asleep. He went up to her and he couldn’t resist kissing her sweet pink lips. He realized she was kissing him back and he wrapped his arms around her. Suddenly her glorious blue eyes opened. "Oh my God, I’m not dreaming," she said stunned. "No it’s not a dream it’s heaven," Darien said huskily. "I don’t understand," Serena said confused. "I know I’ll explain in a moment but let me just...," and Darien was kissing her again, he didn’t want to let her go now that he had her, he was afraid she wouldn’t want him after she fully realized who he was. "D...Darien I...," Serena said worriedly. "Shush, I, Serena, I don’t know how to tell you this, I’ve never been good at expressing my feelings. I’ve been hiding them from every one for all my life, too afraid to let any one in, afraid of rejection. I don’t know how to explain the joy and happiness that you have brought into my life. I always watched you, you had so much life and exuberance, you had friends and a loving family, and at first I was envious of you. You had the things I always wanted but after awhile it was hard to hate you. I found my self trying to catch glimpses of you, trying to see you all the time. And when you threw that paper at me for the first time I was so happy I finally had the chance to talk to you, even if it was making fun of you. I did anything to see you. All the feelings you inspired in me were confusing and scary, you frightened me. I didn’t want to fall in love with you so quickly, I didn’t want to risk rejection, so I shut you out. But at least I still got to see you, at least you talked to me. I liked getting you angry at me, at least it showed you had some feelings towards me. Remember that day you fell and you had that short skirt on, my mind went blank all I could see were your beautiful shapely legs. I wanted to kill the men who were whistling and leering at you, I wanted to cover you up and hide you so no one could see you but me. And the day you comforted me, I had never felt so loved so secure, most people would have left me but you stayed, you stayed, before you were in my life it was empty it was colorless, I was empty," Darien finally finished. "But those things you said to me," Serena said still confused and overwhelmed. "Serena don’t you understand, those were lies, I was just scared. No one had ever read me so well, you see through the mask, you see to me, and it was frightening. I always had depended on myself and it scared me that I might not be able to live with out you, so I got mad and said those stupid things, you have to forgive me Serena. Because now I admit it I don’t want to live without you I don’t want to be alone," said Darien quietly. Serena was stunned she had never even thought that Darien could feel this way. "It’s okay, I understand If you don’t want me anymore, I’ve ruined everything like I always do, I mean why would you want me I’m always such a jerk towards you, don’t worry Serena I won’t bother you anymore," Darian said and turned around. "No Darien wait, I was just overwhelmed," Serena ran up to him and hugged him. "I..I... feel the same way I love you more than any thing, I always have," said Serena softly. "Oh really my little meatball head loves the minus zero," Darien whispered softly. "Yes I do," said Serena with a little smile. "You do what?" Darien teased. "I love you," said Serena again a bigger smile on her lips. "What was that meatball head," Darien teased again. "I love you," Serena said louder "Sorry I couldn’t hear you." "Ughh are you trying to make me feel stupid for loving you?," said Serena in mock anger, then she playfully hit him on the shoulder and ran away. Darien caught up to her quickly and crushed her up against him, his lips brushed her ear. "I can’t get enough of you, I can’t get enough of hearing I love you from your sweet lips," Darien whispered huskily. "I love you, I love you, I love...," but Serena never got to finish, Darien swooped his lips down to hers and kissed her deep with hunger and fierce possession. His tongue probed her sweet mouth over and over again. Finally he pulled away breathing raggedly: "You belong to me," Darien said harshly. It was Serena’s turn to tease: "Oh really. I think it’s you that belongs to me, hon." "Just so long as you love me forever," Darien whispered huskily. "Oh believe me it will be much longer than that," Serena whispered back. Then Darien touched his nose to hers and whispered the words that Serena had been dying to hear: "I love you."