Hey!! Was up people?? It's me again... your Midnight Angel!! I am back
 with the long awaited ch.2! This one picks up right where the last 
chapter left off... want to know what happens......then read!!!! Plus 
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"Letters of Confession"
Midnight Angel
Rated : PG


 ~ at the rose gardens ~ 


  Darien walked through the rose gardens thinking in deep thought to 
himself as he had so many times before. Somehow when he was in these 
gardens , he felt like it was home . Usually by the time he got to the
 red roses his problems were far from his thoughts , but today.... even
 the rose gardens weren't helping . 'Why did I say what I said?' he 
mentally kicked himself. 'Andy's right, I'm gonna push her away. She'll
 never forgive me, or even speak to me again. What have I done? Oh gods,
 if I had just one more chance... just one more... , if I could be 
alone with her, get her to listen.... I'd show her the real me.' He 
continued to walk down the path when he heard heart breaking sobs. 
"Where is that coming from??" He began looking around for the source 
of these painful cries. Spotting a small space in the thick bushes he
 pushed his way through. When he saw what was on the other side he 
stopped dead in  his tracks.~ Serena ~
  Serena sat facing the lake as she leaned against the tree. She looked
 over the water as tears poured down her cheeks, and heartfelt sobs 
escaped her lips. "How could he say that?" she asked whispering into 
the air. 'Why does this hurt so much??' she thought to herself. 
(because you love him) 'How can I love someone who hurts me so much?'
 (because you know he's only hiding the real him)
   Serena trembled to an all time high when she thought of this. Even
 her favorite place in Tokyo wasn't helping. She had come here many 
times before to think after getting a bad grade , almost dying or losing
 a friend in battle as Sailor Moon , and especially after her fights 
with Darien. She didn't even know how she found it. She was just 
stumbling through the rose gardens after a battle one night, limping, and 
crying from the pain in her leg she fell. That's when she saw the tiny path 
through the thick bushes. Wanting to hide, and be alone, she took 
the path. Somehow it felt so familiar, like she had been here before,
 a safe haven. Since then it's been her secret place.
   "Why does he hate me so much? What did I ever do to him?? From the
 first time he saw me he hated me , and made fun of me." Crying she 
pulled her legs to her body , wrapping her arms around the she sobbed
 into her knees.~ Darien ~
  'Oh Serena , what have I done ? Could you ?? Or would you ever forgive
 me??' he sighed at this thought. Watching her closely, and quietly 
from the bushes his mind began to wander ; filling of sweet thoughts 
of Serena. 'gods she is so beautiful. Those big blue eyes....(sighs) 
how I would give anything to see love in those eyes when she looks at
 me. That hair.... As unusually the style it is the only one that 
defines her, flowing softly in silk like pigtails down her back. If I
 could just run my hands through it , and hold her. And those lips. 
Beautiful even when she pouts , and even more when she smiles. I long
 to kiss them.' Oh, I am truly dreaming. She will NEVER look at me with
 loving eyes, NEVER allow me to hold and caress her, NEVER allow  me 
to kiss those lips or kiss me back , and she will NEVER forgive me.
' His heart started breaking at his thoughts. He stood there silently
 watching his beautiful goddess cry to the moon  and stars , listening
 for anything she might say.
     "Why does he hate me so much ? What did I ever do to him ? From 
the first time he saw me he hated me , and made fun of me. " she cried
  Darien's eyes grew wide as he tried to blink away the on coming tears.
 His heart was ripped to pieces by her words.' Oh Serena , (he sighed
 to himself) I do not hate you. I never have , and never could. I am 
sorry I have hurt you so much when all I wanted to really do was love
 you.' (Well, tell HER that you baka!!) his mind was screaming at him.
'If only I could show you the real me, maybe you'd love me. I was just
so scared to love. Scared to lose this love. Scared it would not be returned.' 
  Blinking away tears he began to quietly walk towards her. (comfort 
her you baka! Let her see the real you before it's too late!) Slowly he 
got down on his knees behind her, and carefully placed a loving hand on 
her shoulder.~ both ~
  Serena's body trembled under the touch. Startled she gasped, turning 
around to see who was there. Tear filled sea blue eye met tear filled 
midnight blue eyes. She stumbled to her knees pulling his hand from her 
shoulder. "What...(sniffles)... 
are...(sniffles)...you...(sniffles)...doing here?" she said through her sniffles
   "I was walking through the rose gardens thinking when I heard 
someone crying. I don't know how, but I found a hidden path in the bushes. 
When I walked through I saw it was you, and I couldn't move. The sight of 
you so upset broke my heart, and I wanted to comfort you..." trailing 
off he lifted his gaze from his knees to her eyes.
   "Why? Why would you say those things in your letter then come here 
pretending nothing ever happened trying to comfort me?" her heart ached 
so much she turned away from his gaze. 'Was that...heartbreak in his 
eyes?' (yes!) 'No! For what?' (because he knows he hurt you, and it hurts him)
   'Do it Darien!! Tell her now before she leaves, and never lets you 
near her again!! '
   "Serena......I'm sorry........." he trailed off as he got up, and 
slowly began to leave.
   "Why do you hate me?" she asked tearfully, looking at the shimmering 
light the moon brought upon the water of the lake.
   Darien stood still in his place trying hard to hold back tears he 
calmly spoke. "I don't hate you......I never have, and never could." His 
heart stopped at the questioning look he saw on Serena's face.
   Tears slowed down as she spoke equally as calm, "Then why are you so 
mean to me?? You've never tried to get to know me, the real me." She 
looked down letting her tears fall to the ground.
   "Serena..." Darien started as he got down on his knees in front of 
her, gently lifting his hand to her chin, and letting his thumb softly 
brush away her tears. "There is so much you don't know about me.So much 
you don't know, that no one does. I was afraid."
  Serena gazed into his eyes with shock, and confusion. "Afraid of 
what?" she asked shakily.
  "Afraid to show the real me, to let people too close, to open up, 
afraid to love..." he gazed lovingly into her eyes, gently caressing her 
face as he continued to speak. "I was afraid if I opened up to people, 
and let them know the real me, that if I did I would lose them, or they 
would laugh at me......" Tears gently crept down his cheeks, and he 
closed his eyes letting them fall freely. It had been so long since he 
cried openly; too long. His heart skipped a beat when he felt a soft hand 
on his cheek wiping them away. "But when I met you..." he gently 
touched her hand that caressed his cheek, "I didn't have a choice. I fell in 
love from the first time I saw you; and Serena ... ... that scared me. 
I tried so hard to push you away, saying to myself that if I let you 
into my heart freely, and you didn't return my love or I lost you...(he 
gently reached his hand up to run through her golden hair) it would kill me..."
  His cheeks felt cool form the absence of her warm hand on his cheek. 
He slowly opened his eyes in fear she was gone, only to be embraced by 
her tiny arms around his neck with the presence of her head gently 
nestled into the crook of his neck.
   Tears gently crept down Serena's cheeks, but for a new reason. Her 
heart was breaking, not for herself, but for him. She has never known he 
was so alone, or that he could ever be scared.
  "I'm sorry..." she whispered into his ear.
  He basked in his golden moment. (hold her, love her. You might never 
get this chance again.) He gently wrapped his arms around her delicate 
body, placing his head into the soft crook of her neck. He was stifled 
by her words. 'Why is she sorry?' (Don't ask me!! Ask her!!)
  "Why are you sorry?" he asked confused
  "Because," she said whispering softly into his ear, "you were alone. 
Because I never realized how alone you really were. I always thought it 
was because you wanted to be, not because it was forced upon you." She 
moved to look up into his eyes, "I want to get to know you...the real 
you. I promise I will never laugh at you about anything. Will you let 
me?" she looked lovingly into his eyes.
  'gods she is so beautiful, so loving, so caring... why have I waited 
so long to realize this??'
  "If you will give me a chance. Can you ever forgive me for the things 
I've said, and done to you??" his eyes pleading for her to say yes.
  She smiled at his with her most loving smile...
"Well..."

Cliff hanger huh?? I decided to put in two chapters at a time if 
possible. I have started to work on chapter 3, but I am going to have to get 
it into high gear to get that, and chapter 4 finished, and typed to be 
in the next week. The more you email me, and let me know what you think 
the more I will be eager to write!! So please... PLEASE...(pouts) email me!!!!
 Moon beams out, 
      Midnight Angel