Okay if you're still reading this then you've reached the ninth part of my story! Yea for you! Okay sadly I haven't got very much mail. :( So I don't know if this story sucks or not! But to the people who did mail, I Love Ya! To my dear fanfic writers Violet Ice and Twilight whose stories are inspirations to me, thank you! To Meriellen5 who so cool and like a sister to me, props to you girlfriend! To all da people on my e-mail list, Thank you so much and much love to you! Okay if you wanna join mah mailing list just e-mail meeh and I'll send yah an invite! Me don't own Sailormoon, even in unproper English you should be able to get that. PG-13 = thinking "Where there is love there is life." -Mahatma Gandhi "Love has no limits and no regrets." -Writer Unknown "Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself. Love possesses not nor would it be possessed; For love is sufficient unto love." -Kahlil Gibran Here's the little part I like to call the "Tears In Heaven" Soundtrack. If you have any of the songs I put in each chapter then listen to them: Tears In Heaven Sung by Eric Clapton Look at Me Sung by Geri Halliwell Last Dance Sung by Allure Wind Beneath My Wings Sung by Bette Midler It's So Hard to Say Goodbye to Yesterday Sung by Boyz II Men For the First Time Sung by Kenny Loggins TEARS IN HEAVEN (Part Nine) BY:JLALA (jlynpinay@aol.com) The sound of high-pitched laughter floated through Makoto's apartment as Usagi and her friends made lunch. Or at least tried to. Makoto was doing most of the work. After all she was the master chef, the girl was on her way to owning a restaurant on her own. Cutting the tomato Usagi tried hard to concentrate and not think of Mamoru. Another week had passed since she and Mamoru had their fallout. The very thought of their kiss made butterflies flutter in her stomach. Makoto looked at her friend in curiosity. She looked a little out of it. "Usa, you alright?" Makoto asked and put a hand on her shoulder. Poor Usagi, she pretended to smile but she saw the morose look in her eyes. "I'm sorry, I guess I'm a little distracted", Usagi said and gave them a gentle smile. The others smiled back at her. Minako put her hand on Usagi's. "There's something wrong, isn't there?" Minako looked in her friend's eyes. "You can tell us." "Yeah lately it seems that you've been holding something in", Rei said in a worried voice. Ami looked at her with concerned eyes. She sighed. It was time to spill the beans. "Okay", Usagi said and took a deep breath. "Just don't make a big deal out of it, okay?" "Whatever it is, I think we could handle it Usagi", Ami said reassuringly. Usagi looked at each of them with trusting eyes. "I kissed Mamoru", she said in a small voice. "You what?" Minako said disbelivingly though she was actually expecting it. It was about time! Usagi then explained the whole thing from the roses to Mamoru walking out on her. "I don't know what's going on with me", Usagi cried and Ami hugged her friend. She hated to see her so down. She was like her sister. "I don't know if this had ever occurred to you but I think you're in love with him", Rei said and Usagi shook her head. A blush crept on her cheeks. "I agree. You're totally stuck on him." Minako said and Usagi stood up pacing the room. "I'm not!"She said and Usagi was surprised to feel the tears spring to her eyes. Usagi sat back down. "I can't be." "Why not?" Rei asked and her dark eyes looked lovingly at Usagi. "I just can't", Usagi said quietly. "Because you don't want to fall in love or because you just can't let yourself?" Makoto said. Usagi looked up at them with tear-filled eyes. "I just don't know." Usagi answered. ************************************************************************ Looking out the window Usagi inhaled deeply. Her father Kenji watched from the doorway sadly. How he hated to see her so sad. Walking up to her, he put a hand on her shoulder. "Honey, you okay?" he asked and she turned to him. "Yeah dad, I'm alright", Usagi said quietly in thought. She loved Motoki but there was something inside her that flipped when she thought of Mamoru. "Usagi, I know that you love Motoki but that doesn't mean you close your heart to loving another", he said. "Loving someone else doesn't mean you don't love Motoki or that you're betraying him in any way. You can love someone and still be IN love" "Then why am I so scared?" Usagi asked in a choked voice and he felt a pain in his heart for his little girl. He had always wanted to shield her from any pain but he wanted to see her happy. "How can I stop what I'm feeling?" "Give up Usagi." he said. "Give up to love." ************************************************************************ Usagi was awaken to a loud tapping noise. What the hell was that? Looking at her clock she cursed when she realized that it was almost Three o' clock. Suddenly she heard running and Shingo, her brother open the door letting the light of the hallway in. "What's going on?" Usagi asked rubbing her eyes. "You've got to see this", Shingo said. "This will definitely wake you up" She put on her robe and scrambled down the stairs. In the living room her parents were looking out the window. "What's going on?" Usagi inquired and stood in between them. To her utter disbelief there was Mamoru on her lawn. Pitching a tent. "Oh God" "What the hell is he doing?!" Kenji said. "He's ruining my lawn." "I'm gonna go out and talk to him", Ikuko said but Usagi put her hand on her mother's shoulder. "Don't. I'm sure if we just ignore him, he'll go away", she said in an even tone. What did he think he was doing? *BOOM* Usagi grimaced when the sound of thunder and a sudden downpour of heavy rain began to fall over the city. In minutes Mamoru was drenched but he stood outside looking at Usagi who was at the window looking at him. Worry spread over her, what if he got sick? The phone rang and Shingo picked it up. "It's Rei, she says to turn on the radio", he said and his mother quickly turned it on. "This next song is dedicated to Usagi Tsukino." The announcer said. "The guy who called in is apparently camping out on her front lawn!" The deejay let out a small chuckle. "Hopefully she gets the message" With that the record began to play the soulful ballad. When a man loves a woman Can't keep his mind on nothing else He'll trade the world For the good thing he's found If she's bad he can't see it She can do no wrong Turn his back on his best friend If he put her down When a man loves a woman Spend his very last dime Tryin' to hold on to what he needs He'd give up all his comfort Sleep out in the rain If she said that's the way it ought to be Well, this man loves a woman I gave you everything I had Tryin' to hold on to your precious love Baby, please don't treat me bad When a man loves a woman Down deep in his soul She can bring him such misery If she plays him for a fool He's the last one to know Lovin' eyes can't ever see When a man loves a woman He can do no wrong He can never own some other girl Yes when a man loves a woman I know exactly how he feels 'Cause baby, baby, baby, you're my world When a man loves a woman..... The rain poured even harder on him but it didn't matter. All that matter was her. Usagi. She watched him as he walked toward the window. Why was he doing this? He was crazy. He could get pneumonia or the flu or... She couldn't handle it if anyone else she loved got sick. Usagi gasped and suddenly she knew. Putting a hand to the window she let the tears fall from her eyes. "I love you", she whispered. "I'm gonna bring Mamoru some coffee", Ikuko said holding a thermos. "No, I'll do it."She said still looking out the window. Walking to the door she opened the door and saw that Mamoru was already waiting for her. The two stared at one another and without a word she threw her arms around him. The rain fell heavily but in his arms she felt warmth. Usagi and Mamoru kissed passionately as they were soaked to the bone. "I love you Usako", he said sincerely. She laughed and hugged him even tighter. "I know", she responded with a smile. ************************************************************************ "Good thing I brought some extra clothes", Mamoru said with a laugh as they sat on Usagi's bed. "Are you sure you don't feel sick?" she asked and felt his forehead. Mamoru took her hand and kissed it. "Not at all", he answered lovingly as their lips were about to meet. When suddenly a knock was on the door. Ikuko came in holding a towel. "Something to dry your hair with", she said with a smile and left. Usagi quickly got into bed trying to heat herself up quickly. Mamoru had turned off the lights and as he got into bed he wrapped his strong arms around her. It was weird at first but she liked it. Usagi smiled and closed her eyes. "I love you Mamo-chan", she mumbled as she fell into a dream-filled sleep. ************************************************************************ The rays of dawn awoke and Usagi groaned as it beckoned for her to get up. Opening her cornflower blue eyes she looked beside her at Mamoru who was sleeping peacefully. Smiling she pushed his bangs out of his face and kissed him on the forehead. Getting she walked over to her dresser to where Motoki's picture sat. She remembered her promise to never love anyone like she loved him and she wouldn't. But she loved Mamoru with a new kind of love. Usagi would never forget Motoki, that she knew but life would go on. There is always a new beginning. Taking the picture she put it inside a drawer. With a final sigh, she closed it. ************************************************************************ "I hear someone has a birthday coming up", Usagi said with a smile. The park was filled with people but the two didn't mind. It was like no one else was there. "Does he by any chance know what he wants? Any special requests?" Mamoru grabbed her waist and pull her close to him. "I've got everything I want." he said lovingly and gave her kiss. "But...there is something I wanna give you." They sat on a nearby bench and she raised her eyebrows in curiousity. Mamoru began to feel nervous. Really...it was not that big a thing and people do this all the time but he felt himself get nervous flutter in his gut. Quietly he took a black velvet box and handed it to her. "What is it?" she asked and looked at him. "O-O-Open it", Mamoru said to her shakily. Usagi held the box and delicately opened it to reveal a beautiful gold band. "It's a promise ring." "It's lovely", Usagi said and she held it in her palm. It shimmered in the light. She put it on her finger, a perfect fit. "It means that I won't give you an engagement ring until you WANT me to", he said and she choked back the sob of happiness in her throat. "I love you, I'll wait." Usagi wrapped her arms around his neck and their lips met in a heated kiss. When they stopped the couple gazed into one another eyes. "Hey do you think Motoki thinks this is a good idea?" Out of nowhere a shower of cherry blossoms flew around them. Usagi looked around in amazement. When she looked in her hand a single blossom laid in her palm. Usagi smiled and looked at her boyfriend. "Yeah, I think he does."She responded. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ You have now reached the end of my story! Yea! Now just wait for the epilogue! Did you think I'd finish the story like that! Alrighty then! Ja Ne!